Caroline

Do the American people like Swedish food? Either that, or there’s a lot of Swedes living in the U.S. I’ve just found the store “Sweden’s best“, where they sell Swedish food and candy. Okay, so they don’t have my favourite candy, but at the moment almost anything - that actually tastes like candy - will due.

You see, I have a small problem with the American candy. Mainly because the licorice is sweet and that some of the chocolate tastes funny. But now that I’ve found “Sweden’s best” I may actually be able to endure my time here. Don’t you think that it’s sad that things like this make me happy? Because I do…

My time in the U.S. has really screwed me up. Before I went here I was afraid of the future: I couldn’t imagine myself having a nine to five job, settle down and get an apartment or even own my own car. Now I’m actually planning what kind of furniture I’m going to have in my future apartment and thinking about whether I would like to have a cat or not. If I’m getting a cat, I will probably name it Måne, that’s Swedish for moon.

Cat or no cat, that’s not what I’m bothered about right now. I’m surprised by the change that I’ve obviously been thru the last three weeks. The fact that I am no longer afraid of the future, just hit me yesterday, and I don’t really know how to respond. Yes, it’s great and I like it. I like the fact that I no longer shiver when I think about the future. But in the meantime, I’m wondering why my opinions changed and if many more of my opinions will change. It wouldn’t be surprising, I’m in Oklahoma and many people here have a different point of view on life than I do. So, who knows what kind of view on life I will have in four months?

Today I miss the home cooked dinners. I would kill for some regular boiled potatoes, meatballs and lingonberry jam.

Wide, personal and most likely very difficult to write about. That’s probably the best way to describe the topic of my blog: feelings. I’m gonna try to capture the different kinds of feelings that you may experience when you pack your things and move across the globe. Because that ’s what I did three weeks ago.

It all started a few month ago. I made the decision to go to Oklahoma State University, even though I had no idea what the school would look like or what it could offer me. What I did know, was that the school was situated in the United States, and that was good enough for me. Just after celebrating the new year, I said goodbye to my friends, family and boyfriend. 24 hours later, I had replaced my home country Sweden to the U.S.

At some point in our lives, we are all in the situation where we have to leave someone we love, just like I left my friends, family and boyfriend at home. This is, without any doubt, one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Still, this is my own choice. I am going to use this blog as a kind of therapy, where I can write about and discuss the different kinds of feelings that I will experience.